Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Determination or Stubbornness?

Sometimes I wonder how much my determination helps me, and how much it hurts me. I know I have probably pushed myself further than I should, and ignored things my body was trying to tell me. I don't know if I am just in denial, or if I know what I should do but I don't do it.

My marathon training has been plagued with issues. But I am still able to run, for the most part, so I keep going. Due to my ankle I have been forced to incorporate walk breaks into even my shortest runs. I hate to walk, but I know it increases my chances of being able to keep running.

I am now 6 1/2 weeks out from my marathon. I feel like I have 2 choices: a) I can push through, train conservatively, and run the race; or b) I can scrap my training, let my body heal completely, and start over in a few months. Of course I want to choose option a. Not only have I been training for 3 months, but I have wanted to do a marathon for over a year. I would hate to postpone it even longer.

For now I am taking it literally one run at a time. If I get to the point where I can't run due to pain or injury, of course I will stop. But I don't want to quit unless I absolutely have to. If I can make it through the marathon, I will definitely take a break after that. But I am so close at this point, it would break my heart to walk away from it.

Also, I would really miss eating this

and these

Just being honest!

So, I will continue to take it one day at a time.


  1. Good luck trying to decide what to do, it's really crappy to have to make the decision to keep going or quit. I hope your body heals quickly and you can run the marathon!